I have so many issues with weight and weight loss, which I am sure I will talk about in great detail at some point during this journey. But for now, I'm gonna lay down some basics--my stats, my goals, my points value via WW. I will use this blog to track what I eat and what kind of exercise I do, and I will also chart my feelings, grocery lists, issues, whatever.
Okay, down to the nitty-gritty.
I weighed in today at 196.8. I want to give a little weight history here--this is almost the heaviest I've ever weighed. The heaviest I've ever weighed is 200, which was like...a couple of weeks ago. So this is basically the heaviest I ever weighed.
So I said I wasn't going to get into a long thing here but I guess I lied.
I'm not sure what my number was when I was at my thinnest. All I know is that the last time I can remember feeling really good about my weight was Christmas 2007. I had been feeling good about my self since basically the beginning of the summer, and that fall-winter I was at my best. It's when I met Rick for the first time. Here is a picture of me that Christmas.
My struggle began shortly after that--I'm not exactly sure what happened, but it happened really fast--stress, holidays, whatever, I had gained weight and was in the mid 160s by late February 2008.
I stayed in the 160s for quite some time. I remember struggling with it over the summer, being frustrated that I couldn't seem to get firmly under 165. I had no idea what was happening to me. And I had a tough year of school in store. By March 2008, I had my second weight wake-up call--I weighed 174. I remember being DEVESTATED by this. I SWORE I would NEVER get over 174, and I started calorie counting and trying to work out. From then until September 2009, I fluctuated between 170-165. This is a picture of me from the road trip moving out here:
This is when shit gets real. From like. January of 2008-September 2009, I estimate that I gained a totally of 30 pounds. That's 30 pounds in 1 and a half years. However, since moving from New York to California to present (September 2009-September 2010) I've gone from 174, to 200. That's 25 pounds in a year! What's really crazy is most of that was accomplished in the first 6 months---the last 6 months I've been TRYING to lose weight. Here is a recent picture of me.
Man, is it hard for me to look at the first picture and last picture together.
So here I am, starting weight watchers. I'm 196.8 today. I think that my ultimate goal is 140. That's 56.8 pounds. Whew.
WW asks you to start smaller with you goals. This makes sense. It says to start with trying to lose 5% of your starting weight, and then 10 %.
5% of my starting weight is: 9.5 pounds, which would bring me down to 187.3. Gotta say, that doesn't sound great, but I haven't been under 190 in a while, so I'm happy to start somewhere.
10% of my starting weight is: 19 pounds. That would take me down to 177.8.
So I guess that's what I'm working on right now-losing 9.5 pounds.
WHEW. OKAY. THAT WAS LONG.
My next step, I think, is to plan out my meals for the rest of the week and then go grocery shopping.
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